One year after punching and knocking out his now-wife, Janay, on
Valentine’s Day inside an Atlantic City casino elevator, former Ravens
running back Ray Rice says he’s experienced very dark moments. That he
was emotionally devastated after the video went pubic. He felt so
terrible after the public backlash that “I almost felt like at one point
that it wasn’t worth living.”
Rice sat down with the Baltimore Sun and said:
“The big picture of it all, being the
person that I am, I really felt horrible. You almost want to punish
yourself. I know I’m never going to win the battle of public opinion.
Honestly, I almost felt like at one point that it wasn’t worth living. I
see why people commit suicide.
“It hurt that bad. I was low, real low.
It hurt that bad because you worked your whole life to do all the right
things and then you’re the world’s most hated person. It was really
tough. My daughter, oh Lord, I grew up without a father, there’s no way I
could check out on my own family.
Time does heal everything, but I don’t
think people are going to forget this. I want people to not forget about
the incident, but I want people to see there’s a human being on the
other side. This is not a monster, a guy who’s a repeat offender. I’m
not the guy they stereotype me to be. I’m not excusing what I did.”